22 June 2006

the salisbury steak of life

i am tired a lot.

but only just recently have a hit a level of fatigue that negates all other life.

i am tired of pretend. of everyday taxing. of anticipated monotony.

i don't want this pseudo-life. with will-they-wont-they relationships, and mediocre careers. cute work outfits and wild work nights-out. the routine of disappointment, distraction, and denial.

ready made life packets now available in your grocers fridge. it's so easy, so mouthwatering and tempting. so cheap and lo-carb. promising you can be sated in minutes, the e-numbers veiling the lifelong regrets that will follow.


i have a week off starting tomorrow.

a week on my own. no holiday. no flatmates. just an empty canvas. and i want to come out the other end sure of something.

it might take a spirit guide in the woods goddammit, but i am not going back to that.

i am unwilling to settle.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

am thinking i'll be coming (maybe elizabeth, maybe not) that second weekend. so don't use all of your holiday time now...

the V said...

lucky for me, july is the beginning of the new fiscal year and i get new holiday. that said, i already took off afriday (the 17th?) for a long weekend - is that the one you mean? how handy would that be?

the V said...

lucky for me, july is the beginning of the new fiscal year and i get new holiday. that said, i already took off afriday (the 17th?) for a long weekend - is that the one you mean? how handy would that be?

Anonymous said...

yes, friday the 14th is the one that i mean.

oh i'm so tired...i can't think about that right now...